Thought for the week..

Happiness comes in many forms -- in the company of good friends, in the feeling you get when you make someone else's dream come true, or in the promise of hope renewed. It's okay to let yourself be happy because you never know how fleeting that happiness might be.

-one tree hill

Saturday, September 5, 2015

4 Sept 2015


Of budding flowers that never blossom
Except on moonlit nights
Of gallant princes and the bravest princesses
They gave it all for a fight
Of singers and dancers
And the melodies they brought
Of musicians and artists
And the instruments they sought
Of turbulent waves and tornadoes in the air
Where ships and planes got lost
Of missing passengers and silent nights
And isolation in which they were caught
Of snipers and pistols and crime scenes
And detectives and murders they got
Of logic and irrationality used
In building up or killing the plot
Of masters and their muse
Of logic left unused
Of beauties becoming beasts
Of harmonies and masquerade feasts
Of ball dancers and lost shoes
Of chaotic lives and mixed hues
Of tempests and back stabbers
Of how to cut open a cadaver
Of a girl whose only wish was to be taught
And more and more this old heart sought
And in my corner the little space near my bed
I realized that I was more alive than dead
The boat I am on was never set out to reach the shore
For in travelling it found more than the 'of'
For in being stranded it realized the treasure it sought
At the shore the others went back and then they lost
They could never come back and go ahead than most
But my boat was stranded and moves ahead
And so it saw more than they ever had dreamt
More and more it can now explore
Deeper and deeper into the labyrinth to go

No sleep no rest no light no shore

- The peaceful Me

Friday, March 6, 2015

4th March 2015

If you find a way beyond what they say
And move through the hurdles put forth
Know well that soon even the guy on the moon
Won't be able to lash out a retort.
The days will be blue the feelings high too
But the trip is sure worth the cost
Be gone! If you're one who thinks it can't be done
Walk off the plank because on you it is lost.
And ye who thinks about the joy the way brings
Come forth and this garland of luck you wear
For there will be so many who will put you through tyranny
And at your will they will tear
But do not lose sight for there lays great might
In the will of the one who won't break
The treasure at the end of the rainbows bend
Is layed out only for the mighty to take
So reach out move ahead or soon you'll be dead
And lie among the myriad others
The flame of life is biased to none and in the end all of us it smothers
So if you find a way beyond what they say
And move through the hurdles that stood
Then the path by no one can it be undone
For one soul showed them she could.


-Me

Monday, March 2, 2015

2nd March 2015



Maybe it's me, I was born this way
To be amazed at all, the smallest things one says
To believe that the world is much more than what I see
To believe things mean more than what they ought to be
The simplest of things the most mundane
So many around me call me insane
Because I think this of that and more and more
For every moment is gold and mending the sore
Everything is an answer to a question I must have once asked
Everything is connected, my future present and past.
The world is a wonder awaiting my exploration
Something’s that I have seen are beyond my comprehension
Believing in something with all your heart can make it come true
It was such a simple task I consciously never knew
The universe around you has feelings like you
Do not ignore it and slowly let it permeate through
It will start simple with the most futile of things
Wait patiently for the beauties the wonders it brings
The day my mind my body my soul
Come together as one that day I'll be whole.
Till then I'll wonder and ponder some more
For there is so much that awaits you waiting for you to explore.

-Me


Sunday, March 1, 2015

A Wrinkle in Time. 1 March 2015

A title I wanted to work on for so darn long and now I have finally done it!
Song playing: I'll meet you there - Owl City


She didn't know him much,
But then neither did he,
The before of their friendship,
Isn't part of their memory.
Heartbreaks and betrayals,
She has seen many,
But broken souls to mend,
She cannot leave out any.
A kind word he needed,
She gave him her all,
Another chance to heal herself,
Would she take the right call?
What if it turned on her?
Another hurt and pain.
What if all she got was,
To lose more than gain?
Get to know some more,
Find out the intent,
Is it her savior more than,
As the savior she was meant.
What joy he brought,
She could mend her broken wings,
And soar above in the skies again,
Oh what joys his presence brings.
And then the dark clouds come,
The rains deluge,
Wings wet heart drowning,
Back towards earth the lunge.
A backup a second choice,
A rebound was she,
Frail and falling now,
She loses her finesse.
Those wrinkles that were in her time,
Create a ripple now,
These wrinkles break the surface,
A wave they form somehow.
They used to be something she could bear,
With a beautiful brilliant smile,
Those ripples that used to lap at her feet,
Couldn't touch her for a while.
But now the waves rise,
High above her head,
Crash and burn and drown,
And now she is close to dead.
Another small wrinkle she sees,
As its light brilliant blue glows,
And she watches as its light,
Against the waves flows.
Breaking the pattern of the ripples,
Breaking the might,
A single wrinkle has come to save her,
Such a humbling sight.
But its path is long and hard,
She is too far gone,
The misery of them all has surmounted,
Too much she has borne.
How will one little wrinkle,
In her time try and change,
When she who mends all others,
Couldn't herself manage.
Either build or destroy,
Only one path can be,
Beautiful or black her future,
No one can foresee.

Love
-Me


Wednesday, February 25, 2015

25 Feb 2015


Why oh why do you trust them so soon
Like a traveller in a desert drinking from a lagoon
You let go so quickly and let them come through
The lights in your courtyard forest green and blinding blue
You drop your walls like there were none
The chains the locks so quickly undone
The towers the chambers the dungeons the cellars
The places you hid from the building tremors
Vanished as you let them, let all of them in
Blown away like smoke, by the silent wind
Why oh why do you trust them so soon
Like a traveller in a desert drinking from a lagoon
Don't you know how the last war was lost
Have you forgotten how it left you and your past
Remember again why you put up those towers
Remember again the demise of all your powers
To pick up the pieces and join them again you hid
And again now the key to your door from your hands it slid
Once inside they have the power they have the might
To tear and break and shatter you from inside
Why oh why do you trust them so soon
Like a traveller in a desert drinking from a lagoon
Now it's done and destroyed and shattered and broken
No spells can keep out what into your doors you've taken
Now hope now pray that you made the right choice
Is it your joy or agony that makes them rejoice
You shouldn't have trusted in them so soon
Like that traveller who realised he can't drink from a lagoon
Like the traveller who sat thirsty for he let the joy in too soon.

Love
Me

Friday, February 20, 2015

My Prison My Escape 21 Feb 2015 11:46 am


What limits me will set me free
What breaks me will truly make me see
What hurts always mends better
The release you feel when you burnt that letter
A sad movie when you feel low
The tears fall and release the sorrow
The tiring climb to the highest peak
When you reach the top and feel the peace you seek
A book you never read opened when you're numb
Fall into the valley of feelings you thought would never come
My body so frail so limiting so dim
my spirit my soul it protects within
The smile that hides my feelings inside
It makes the world around me bigger and more bright
My mind my unconscious for granted I take
My body my soul my prison my escape.

Love and Luck

-Me

You. 20 Feb 2015 6:52 pm

Dear You,

I am not yet old and I'm not yet grey
But I have come a long long way
I have been in so many roles that when I look back today
I know enough to know I can say
There will be highs
there will be lows
Just as there are beauties
There will be sores
Every moment you live
You create a story to tell
Every moment you sulk
you're only increasing the bulk
Of the weight of the world
That wasn't yours to bear
Of the weight of the ones
Who never for you did care
For whom you were just a game
A trial and error platform
Whom you let in
Whom you trusted too soon
Then there will be the ones
In the shadows they lurk
You have never seen them
You are unconscious to their worth.
Then there will be ones
Who light up your days
Don't forget that you are giving them
The power to darken your ways
People may play an important part
there's a chance
But that they are most important
should be proclaimed a farce
I want to tell you
Who will be true
Who oh who
Will always see you through
Who would hold you
When none else cares
Who will sing more joyously for you
When you yourself wouldn't dare
Who is strong when you are low
Who loves you every step of the way
Who will never give up on you
Who will never betray
Who will not leave you
No matter how much you shun them away
The one bright light
To be by your side
The one silver lining
In the coldest darkest night
I know you're smart
And know what I'm getting too
Yes this one
This one person is "You"

Be kind be strong be wonderful be bright
Be what you wanted them to be
Be Your own delight
Know today you will always have you
You will be the only one who will always see yourself through.

Love and luck
- Me.


Thursday, February 19, 2015

A letter to my Friend. 20 Feb 2015

Dearest Friend,

I am writing this letter to you to tell you a little more about me. I am doing this because once I count you as my friend I give you the power to make me or break me. I let my walls come down and once that happens, once I let you into the room that's in the deepest corner of the longest corridor of my mind, I become vulnerable. In that room I am the truest of me. In that room there are no double meanings, no hidden motives, no drama just me.
Once you are in my room know that I have put you on a pedestal and you have a halo on your head. I try not to expect anything from you, but I will always expect to be as important to you as you are to me, I want you to treat me as I treat you. Be true as I am true. I don't believe in gifts, I believe in the intention. I you have the same feeling for me in your heart as I do for you, I will know, and no amounts of gifts can buy me compared to a warm hand and a kind word when I desperately need it. I will always know when you are low, I will scold you for not being good to yourself, but know that I'm only being my truest self to you.
I dont expect you to respond to my every whim and fancy but I do expect you to fulfill your dreams. I want you to be strong and beautiful and wonderful. I want you to prove to me every second of every day that you should be my friend, not by doing things for me, but by building yourself, living for yourself and glowing brighter everyday. I want to feel proud to call you my friend. I want you to push yourself to such an extent that even I cannot catch up. And believe me I will match your passion every step of the way. But only if you do.
Be an inspiration to me, become my mentor, be wonderful, be true be the most beautiful you.

If you can then I will.

 Love and Luck
-Me

Saturday, December 20, 2014

20 Dec 2014

I am so fed up with the way you treat me,
So fed up with what you think I need to be,
I am so fed up I don't feel like me,
So fed up so fed up I think now I need to leave.

You want me here and there and then here again,
Then move and push and shove and back there,
The jump and pop and over and under,
Oh! I am tired of being lost in this fair.

The light is there, right there I see it,
And then you step in and I lose sight,
The light the smallest glimpse I had got,
It was like you stomped the small ray of hope I sought.

Should I look down, give up and leave?
Or should I look beyond you and find the light I seek?
I move you away and step out of your shadow,
I move out of the darkness of this burden, into the halo.

Out of the door, through the forest and ahead,
It flickers a little and suddenly bursts forth.
Leading me onto and further to I know not where,
The clearing beyond it, at it I now stare.

On the edge of a cliff I stand at last,
The light goes on beyond without a care,
I again feel the darkness encompassing around,
Wanting to suffocate me, but I chose not to drown.

I lift my arms, feel the air blow by me
As I take the step, the leap to follow the light on.
And now as I let the light surround me, I'll finally be free.
I will get to find my serenity.

-Me

Monday, February 24, 2014

2/25/14

Ok, so I was rummaging through my old stuff and found an old diary and this poem that I had forgotten I had written...:P

Life is a Fantasy,
So full of reality.
You'll never know when
You are pinched awake.
You'll land on soft moss,
Everything's fine.
Then you'll realise
You are actually dying.
You'll stand after an accident,
To look all around,
Checking if all of you is safe and sound.
Just to realise you never got up from that ground.
You'll see the shimmering stars, 
All pouring down their light.
And then the clouds will suddenly burst,
Come and deluge with all their might.
You'll go into the garden,
And see the beauty you surround.
Only to have chasing after you,
A swarm of honey bee hounds.
Nothing will be perfect,
Nothing will go right.
Nothing will happen my way,
That is my daily plight.

a few modifications have been made here and there..:)

-Love
Ridhi

Monday, September 23, 2013

THE ME I WANNA BE(24 Sept 2013 11:42 am)

Looks like Thunder, feels like Rain,
I cannot understand the difference between being happy and being insane.
Being a bird, a frog or a tree,
Or a soul searching for its body in the war's debris.
 A mask you wore to the masquerade,
What about the mask you wear every other day instead.
A good book to let you drift away,
But is it me or yourself from whom your trying to run today?
The notion of being left with your dreams scares you,
Being alone is a comfortable place for very few.
If I asked you now "What do you do?"
Are 'who you are', and 'who you want to be''s feet in the same shoe?
It's going to be a long day, and an even longer night,
If you gave up on him without a tempestuous fight.
It is well known you cannot live with someone you hate,
But what when that is you behind your own gate?
You know by now what you needs must do,
Have faith, it is within you to see yourself through.
Make up, make down,
Break free, don't turn around.
Be him, be her, be the one you are meant to be,
Me Oh! I'm just gonna go be me...
No bird no frog no bee no tree...
Me Oh! I'm just gonna go be me.. 

-Love n Luck
Ridhi..

P.S I Love this one..

Saturday, September 21, 2013

21-09-2013, 16:27..

A brilliant shade of burning red, like fire but unlike fire, instead...
That's what I see when I look at you, such a brilliant shade of shining blue...
A passion a fever that drives us apart, the brightest golden yellow yearning in your heart...
A sound, a whisper, a mystery, oh I saw the purple in your eye wink at me...
The wings the shade that protects us all, the silvery cloak you wore, a shawl...
The leaves in your hands the dirt under your feet, the browns and greens in you I meet...
Your roots so deep, a sudden calm, the white in you never meant no harm...
Through grief you learnt of the smiles to share, a mighty orange that was, is now left threadbare...
A silent tear a ripple with no sound, the black the black has left me spell bound...
Oh! Bring it here, let me hold it near, or you will lose your colors I fear...
Bring it to me, can you not hear, I will not let you lose your colors my dear...
I will not let you lose your colors my dear...
 I WILL NOT LET THEM TAKE MY COLORS, DON'T FEAR...

-I guess I Can write without a rant in mind...:)
Lots of love
-Ridhi..

Saturday, November 3, 2012

Shadow Tonight...(4 Nov 2012 -RG)

There is numbness inside,
A feeling I cannot feel.
Too much is on the other side.

A closet full of darkness,
A shadow lurks right there,
This box this wooden case,
I believe this is my share.

Share of all that must happen,
Or is beginning to take form,
But why is it so dark inside?
The darkest nothingness adorned.

The shadow lurks farther,
Moves across the room,
In its wake I think something shimmered,
Was it the smallest of sparks, to ignite my doom?

A cloak it wears, that has no tear,
If it did too I would not see or care,
Inside the cloak too its skin is black,
For under the cloak it is bare.

Feet soiled, its nails rotten,
The shadow suddenly stops,
I feel me feet, my hands my face,
A different direction as it adopts.

Moving breathlessly onwards toward me,
The room suddenly seems so small,
The darkest dark the vacuum space,
The shadow starts to engulf the hall.

The closet bursts open,
The darkest corner emphasized,
I still fell nothing, could I embrace it,
And be reborn tonight?

I am suddenly engulfed, surrounded, drowned
In this nothingness that I feel…
Oh haha, "feel" did I say, "Feel" I wish I could,
But no it’s just an empty ordeal.

I need a light to make this darkness bright,
Sunlight or moonlight,
Just might do the trick,
Just might set this horror right.

Because, I have nothing else,
To make this dark knight,
This shadow that is mine,
Too leave my side tonight,
This shadow that is mine,
To move on into the night.

-RG

Sunday, October 2, 2011

Hi,
do u know the problem wid life???
its unpredictable..
u dream of something for someday.... n den it all goes up in flames...a bright beautiful day...ur all smiles...n den the dark clouds come your way and u av no idea what to do nemore...
do u understand death and all the things it holds...death is not in just once sense..it has so many meanings that i realize it now dat death is not just one thing...when it comes to death u think of somebody leaving and never coming back...but ill tell u death has more to it dan just this...death is an end that will never have another begining...death has no hopes attached...as long as there's hope there is life...there is a meaning a thought and an attachment...as soon as there's death...its an end...i once had an opportunity to understand death and speak about it in front of a public...and i sat and thought for like 2 min and all i could come up with was a huge blank...u understand what a blank is??...a dead end a full stop with nothing in front of it..nothing to it.. nothing ahead...just darkness and no light...death is that part...death can be death of a relationship, death of a friendship, death of a feeling, death of an emotion...death has so many forms that i dun think most ppl have recognized..
death is beautiful and horrid at the very same time...and when u feel this come to you..this feeling of nothingness...dats death...ppl who wish for death dun wish to die...ofcourse not...they wish for the feeling of nothingness that comes with death..they want the peace that comes wid death...u might say u r killing urself cuz nobody understands u or somebody hurt u or u hurt somebody or u lost somebody...but no u kill urself hoping to get out of the cadge...but u just dun realise dat hope n death dun go together...u just dun get it dat hope is dere only when u live...if death comes den  theres nothing left to hope for...if u live then there is hope of sthing getting better...something improving...life becoming beautiful...but if death is ur way den know that theres nothing ahead waiting for u..no heavens doors no hells gates...just darkness and nothing ness...cuz all the ppl who say they understand death and know what dey are talking about are liars...there is no one in the world who lives and knows what its like to die...and no body in this world who knows what it is to die and can tell us the tale...ppl who pretend are lying they dreamt that they went to heavens gate and dat they were recieved by anybody...as long as ur brain is working and you can dream then you do not know what it is to die...all the spirits that roam around us...even they do not know what it is to die cuz they are still stuck in our world...they av no idea what is beyond...and those who av gone beyond cannot tell us their stories we very well know that...we are fooling ourselves if we associate death with hope....we r the biggest fools if we do such a thing...its just a miserable attempt..an attempt of the fpolish...death is the end...and no god is not playing games wid us by not telling us about death.. cuz he hasent even told us about life...den y shd he explain death...
even i do not know what his wishes are...at times we leave all to him and at times we try to do everything ourselves...y?...a frnd wisely said k humne jo kiya hai humara jo past hai hum use soch k ro nahi sakte...and i understood it..cuz even if it is my past..its me who made it my past na...i made those decisions..i chose to make that my past..everything..every bloody little thing was my decision..i chose to do things that way..that is y i am here...past we cannot change all we can make is our own future and our present...make a choice today..live in today...frget the past...jo kiya us samy khud ki khushi se kiya na...kisi aur k bolne pe b kiya toh it wsa ur decision to listen to dat person na..in the end jo kiya aap ne kiya na..and aaj b jo karoge aap hi karoge na...its ur decision dear..always was always will b..it was ur decision yaar always...kisi ki baat aap sunoge ya nahi...kuch b karoge ya nahi..sab aapka hi decision tha na..and abhi bhi hai aapka hi hai...so if ur past is bad its ur fault god didnt make it dat way...n if ur future will b bad..its ur fault god didnt do nething to it...you are your own god..what u do is yours.. what you dun control eg weather storms tasunamis are his work...dats not under your controll..but ur actions are your own..god ne tumhare haath nahi pakde hue hain k nahi tum yeah hi karoge..woh tumhara khud ka kaam hai...so live wid it...everything is ur own fucking fault..if ur here its cuz u made urself b here...its all ur fault..remember that...and if it isnt den its not ur life...
yaar u control only ur life nobody elses...just live ur life...make others smile even if it is for microseconds...but what ever u do is ur choice...choose wisely and do the right thing...an inner voice always tries to tell u wt to do...but in d end its always ur choice...choose wisely...
happy day
gud bye
Ridhi

Monday, June 13, 2011

13 june 2011


:created on: 6th may 2011

First day im writing on a good day…

M actually happy today and I wanna see what I can write on a happy day..

Well for starters all I feel like is smiling and laughing…but haan mere class mein kuch gande log hain jo k clan hi khele ja re hain n main ni khel paa ri wid them..:(…for those who are unaware what a clan is its counterstrike game mein when you play as a team n all..so the server is made for a certain number of ppl only and nobody else can join it so im always late..lolzz

Lolzz but no worries…hmmm…it’s a beautiful day..how did it start..

U kno what basketball has th eeffect on me that harry potter has…just cant stop smiling and same with volley…debiya sir is like the most surcastic guy iv met n still I enjoy his comments on my game yesterday I was called a lazy basketball player…:(…lolzzz lazy and den basketball player..sahi hai na…lolzz..

Den basky me meiri kaafi shoots ja rahi thi actually they are boys who are playing n all na toh
kaafi bach k khelna padta hai…aaj jaldi khatam karna padega game cuz mujhe bhook bahut lagti
hai…lolzz…specially after a game of basky….

Mujhe kal hi samjah aya k volley k baad ni lagti bhoonk its after basky..yaar itni gandi..my stomach was rumbling..lolzz..

Lifes finaal good I mean haan u know it was horrible before all the pain and ignoring and everything its just dat if I dun c those ppl everyday na den ill b fine…and d games get my mind off things…my days get filled and khatam ho jate hai jaldi jaldi toh its good…some part of me doesn’t want this time to end and some wants it to be over really soon…well

As of today the 6th of may

Ill say I wish my time here never ends…:*

Yes I feel like huggin n kissin everyone..lolzz

I feel good dats all…

I like being complimented on a good game

I just want a rubic cube here so dat I can solve it and yaar dat guy he solverd the full thing and in pretty less time I mean quite good…first time iv seen sum1 do it..bholu bhiaya I think is getting old and he has a lotta things to do true…zyada show off marte hai yaar who…koi ni chaddo..hmm I think ill be goin home alone..wow my first trip alone..niceo…vaise its not hard I mean connectivity is pretty good thru these places and bus mein saman aa jayega itne bags ni honge zyada saman ni hai yaar mere pe…train se ja ni rahi hun toh ill b able to carry the stuff quite easily…3 bags n no lappy bag…

Pata ni kya likhe ja rahi hun…lolzz

Yaar today is a good day…

Love today..:***

LOVE YOU GOD

Ridhi

13 june 2011


Hi,

Yeah yeah again little missy is writing on a bad day…well u know I really cant help it..its the only
time when I can really concentrate and do a good job wirting, all my neurons are like burned out or
something so all I can concentrate right now is this na..maybe that’s y m able to wirte this well when
sad…

Hmm so lemme tell u why im sad..well actually todays day was full of a few emotions, there
was “wonder” cuz today I awoke to the sounds of pitter patter of the rain on my window pane, it was
so beautiful that I got right outta bed and went and opened up the window just to watch it rain on
the beautiful plants outside my window..yeah I av a wonderful garden just outside my window…its
beautiful and all u can remember of today morning was the beautiful green ness…made my morning...

Then there was the emotion of ultimate happiness…u know extremes of happiness cuz I know I had
made someone feel important today..really improtant..i just wanted that person to know before I
couldn’t tell him nemore that he was so so so important to me… hes been a part of my life for ever..
since I could know him I have known him..and that’s my grandfather.. I wrote him a letter, my first ever
letter I wrote it to him..telling him about everythin and how much he meant to me..and how much I
really adore him...

Then there was this strange feeling I cant put my finger on…that was caused cuz of my sister cuz she had
to read the letter to baba, so she was feeling really strange about it n all…toh dat was dat..

The other of my emotions I dun think they are that omportant cuz though they shaped a huge part of
my day..i don’t feel good about relating them. Ill tell u why I don’t feel good about relating them.. its
beacause they are the bad emotions..the ones that hurt and scratch and burn u from the inside…so I
know its best if you take everythin out n all but truly speaking you cant take such feelings out , atleast I
cant unless its at that particular person themselves..so I guess that’s how I bottle up my feelings…:)..

Hmm this particular post is quite boring, I know that cuz I dun av a story to tell or a plot to narrate…
I just wanted to sit in my lab till 8 in the evening so I am doin this to pass my time and its actually
helping..:)

I av spent almost half an hour here writing this story..now m gonna go to my room and sleep..yes im
hungry but m too angry to eat…its good ill save some money…

Luv n luck.

Ridhi

Friday, April 29, 2011

29 april 2011

Hello world…


I have this funny knot in my stomach…and it hurts

I feel like screaming when im crying and iv never done that before…well truth be told iv never got a place that lonely that I could even hum out loud without ppl hearing me…

Still I feel like screaming and shouting..making myself heard to everyone..i want a loud speaker and on that too i wanna shout..
i want music blaring in my ears and i wanna scream like torture..

I need a really good sad movie to get this outta my system…n I wanna cry really cry shed tears liks someone has passed away…I wanna break free of this misery…my cup is getting fuller by the second and heavier and I just want to go to the wash basin and pour everything into the sink…I want to wash that slimy cup, scrape every bit of algea away…make it beautiful and shiny..and then I want to fill it with rubies and diamonds…I feel so full of emotions I feel so closed…I feel like shouting at someone just wanna burst a million balloons…hurt hurt hurt…scream cry jump…

I want to burn n I hate my vocabulary that is so bloody limited..i cant express what i want to do..break this keyboard for starters...

One thing is definitely for sure…its never just one persons fault…its never the others fault…you are involved in the crime some way or another..its hard to see yourself as the guilty one but yes you have to have had made a mistake…bad things don’t happen to good people..or maybe they do…its just how you consider yourself..you try to find good stuff in everything then even the worst of things will be amazing in your eyes..but sometimes even the best can seem worst when you give up something for the good of another..when you let go knowing that makes the other happy...though you know how much it crushes you that they dun care even the slightest..

Its all about perspective and the kind of feelings you wanna feel…its upto you to make yourself feel good or bad in a situation…if ur so bloody closed in mind k you just cant see around the problem how do you ever think you can get over anything??

Everything has a way of being taken..

You must learn form you mistakes….

Well truth be told you have to learn to 'identify' your mistakes and understand y it’s a mistake for the other person…y your neighbour thinks thats a mistake…I mean if you went and did somethin then its but obvious its not a fault or something wrong that you think you are doing na… but you gotta be in anothers shoes to know y it’s a mistake…you gotta think from each perspective
shit…my head is so full…

Too much to think about but nothing I can ever put on pen and paper cuz they r really controvercial..

Too many conflicts too many ppl can get hurt by what i have to say or by what I have unknowingly done…

I believe everyone has a right to have secrets everyone needs to keep secrets…you cant go on with life without them…u are already judging yourself you cant bear another mind judging you..u cant hear their thought right so dats another trouble for you …you can never know what they think you are doing wrong…and that’s another confusion for you(even I dun know wt im thinkin)…

Yaar its difficult for me atleast to mould myself into what others want…n I cant do it 24X7..its hard..i dun know what ppl want n its so hard to be perfect….pata ni kya..yaar we are supposed to be superior cuz we can think and understand and feel..but its these bloody feelings that make our lives so miserable..y do we feel so much..y cant i just be blinded and numbed....just for a little while i dun wanna feel anything...a blockage...just want one feeling inside me...calmness...
life is so bloody fast that there is no time o just sit and relax...actually there is time but no place to do it...you cant just sit and relax anywhere...always worried about something...you cant just sit and meditate..always something is going through your head...
if i get a wish today i wish for peace and quiet...calmness...some peace...so that i can sit and think only for myself and not be worried dat someone is watchin me or that i am so bloody alone....some small amount of peace..
i wanna feel calm..

Neways where was I ….im sorry I have lost my train of thoughts…

So sorry for this abrupt end but I dun av a habbit of reading back on what iv written…n right now iv lost everything..

Until later

Love n luck

Ridhi

...still im worried no peace..no calm... WHY?

Friday, September 10, 2010

10 sept 2010

now that m going to finish my engineering everything ahead is a haze, parents want me to go for MBA shigher studies, and m left all confused, m workin for everythin just workin...i have nothing that i actually want to do...i have no aim in life nothing that i really want to do...i wanted to go for animation but i guess now even m not sure..i want to do something where ill enjoy myself but iv realized something and that is that the studying part doesnt matter to me...what i really want is to converse with people...i like being in a crowd i like to tlk to people...i dont know what exact profession is that but i want to be around lots of people meet new ppl go to new places...i want to explore this world dont want to be stuck with another 2 yrs in some same place..i want to go to places explore..i love meeting new people...love making friends and aquaintances...
i need something new everytime.. i want to be free i just dont know how i can earn doin all this....

can ne1 out there help me please...

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

1 July 2010

hey ok..i know i have kindda stopped writing stuff myself byt this story is beautiful

a must read...go on give it a try...


A store owner was tacking a sign above his door that read: "Puppies For Sale". Signs like that have a way of attracting small children and sure enough, a little boy appeared under the store owner's sign."How much are you going to sell the puppies for?" he asked.The store owner replied, "Anywhere from $30 to $50."The little boy reached in his pocket and pulled out some change."I have $2.37," he said. "Can I please look at them?"The store owner smiled and whistled and out of the kennel came Lady, who ran out in the aisle of his store followed by five teeny, tiny balls of fur. One puppy was lagging considerably behind.
Immediately the little boy singled out the lagging, limping puppy and said, "What's wrong with that little dog?"The store owner explained that the veterinarian had examined the little puppy and had discovered it didn't have a hip socket. It would always be lame.The little boy became excited. "That is the puppy that I want to buy."The store owner said, "No, you don't want to buy that little dog. If you really want him, I'll just give him to you."The little boy got quite upset. He looked straight into the store owner's eyes, pointing his finger, and said, "I don't want you to give him to me. That little dog is worth every bit as much as all the other dogs and I'll pay full price. In fact, I'll give you $2.37 now, and 50 cents a month until I have him paid for."The store owner countered, "You really don't want to buy this little dog. He is never going to be able to run and jump and play with you like the other puppies."To his surprise, the little boy reached down and rolled up his pant leg to reveal a badly twisted, crippled left leg supported by a big metal brace. He looked up at the store owner and softly replied, "Well, I don't run so well myself, and the little puppy will need someone who understands."Don't we all need someone who understands?

1 JULY 2010...

INTERESTING

This is truly brilliant....It can't get more accurate than this!




Sigmund Freud's priorities test.



Five things are happening in your house at the same time. In which sequence would you solve them?



1. The telephone is ringing!



2. The baby is crying!



3. Someone's knocking or calling you from the front door!



4. You hung the clothes out to dry and it is beginning to rain!



5. You left the tap on in the kitchen and the water is already overflowing!





In which sequence would you solve these problems? Write the sequence and do check below how your decisions were made. BUT BE HONEST, THE FINDINGS ARE EXCITING. First write YOUR sequence from 1 to 5 then scroll below and read after!



Answer:



Every individual point represents something in your life. On the list you can see which meaning every point has:



1. Telephone represents =Work*



2. Baby represents =Family*



3. Door represents =Friends*



4. Clothes represent =Money*



5. Tap represents =Love life*



- Your chosen sequence determines the priorities in your life.