21 jan 2010

loosing...

ever lost an eraser, a pen, a notebuk, your favourite lipgloss, your private diary, your personal phone, something thats only yours..

all of you must have ..everyone has lost something, misplaced these things..ever thought about how it feels when your favourite thing is LOST.. something that is just not cuming back to you be it anything...the feeling of helplessness..the tension of who has it..a horror..

den i suppose you can guess how much more terrible it is to loose a friend???

and how about when you actually want them to leave for their own good...just so that they can holdup their heads in public..what if ur a disgrace of a friend to them??...what if your just not worth being a friend...what if the friendship you treasure is a real sacrifice on their part..

you try to make it easier for them..by not being what they want you to b...but all your doing is pushin them away..but what if thats the right thing to do...what if thats the thing that was supposed to happen?..

i guess letting go is the only thing worth doin in dis situation...but what if ur selfish enough to not want to do that?..what if you just dont ever want to let dem go...can you actually want dem to suffer so much ?...isnt friendship supposed to b about give n take?...

isnt it about trust?...

wat if u put all your trust in that person that they'll live up to what they say to you..and then just to be able to stand up to that they r a mocking stock for all the world?? can a person be soo deeply hurt that they r not able to defend themselves? not able to find a retort good enough to say back to all the fool's out there who dont understand them...

but then what if all you were doing was a pretense of friendship?? what if you really have no idea about what friendship actually is??what if your the real reason that person is sufferin so much...what if its you cuz of whom they r not able t c ne1 in the eye's!!...

loosin a friend is so hard..

but if the friendship was a pretense then y is it so hard to get over??
but the truth still stands letting a friend go, for the sake of friendship...no matter how much they hate you for it...nomatter how hard it is on you...IS the right thing to do..

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