30 march 2010

im listening to a song called "always love by nada surf"

it goes like

always love , hate will get you everytime

always love, even if you arent fine

always love , dont wait till the finish line

have you ever taken a decision in life where you go with the voice inside you??...just think what the outcome to that was...was it good or bad??...did it do you good to listen to that tiny voice inside you??...a secret from me..hear it from my heart but any decision in which iv depended on my heart has always ALWAYS prooved to be worth the risk..

evr wondered where you get the strength to face the world??..when u r down and low who is the only person who sits within you and consoles you when no1 else gives a damn??..well its that tiny voice inside you that only you can hear and, it has no1 else to talk to, no1 else to console..she's all yours to keep forever..she'll never b biased towards you, and she'll scream out the truth at your face everytime you make a mistake, or r lookin for forgivness..she'l never leave your side, no matter if you need her or despise her, no matter if you take her advice or dont listen to her at all, she'l always speak her mind out infront of you, and at the end of the day if anything at all went well is all thanks to her...and if things went wrong, you have yourself to blame for not having listened to her..she's the most trust worthy person.. you should believe what se says cuz she knows...she knows cuz she's the soul..the soul that can live without the body..you need her to b with you..and you should be so greatful to her that she actually does...she can go anytime, and then all that'l b left will be a deep black hole..

just a week ago i was just sittin round thinkin about the soul and things related and i came up with a theory...a hypothesis..lolzz

we say that the soul doesnt need a body to be present..but the body is like a medium for them to contact what we call "the world of the living"..

we never remember what we were in our past lives...(thats the topic of my hypothesis)... well what i was thinkin is that our soul was there in the past life and lived through it, but when we got this new body we grew from "nothing"...we were a single cell...that grew n multiplied and our memory cells also grew in the same way...what we remember is a part of that brain that grew with this new body..and obviousyl is wont have memories about our past...

so maybe thats y we dont remember out past lives..and need hypnosis cuz thats a way to "look into the soul"...

thats y i say..our soul is realy old and has gone through a lot...from its past lives...she remembers everything and she'l always have the best of advice..

but ofcourse you must actually b able to listen to her in order to understand..you have to ask her what to do in order for her to think it through and tell you what's right...

then comes another thought...but she's never lived in this world...this is new to her..how'l she ever know what to do and why to do it when situations arise here???...well there are always two choices"listening to your heart or your head"...she's kindda like your granny ..you know the elders in your home who always have some or the other advice for you but you just dont wanna listen...actually this is the perfect way to describe her..she's like your granny and your brain is like a teenager wanting to do things her way...each is right in their own way and each is wrong too..experience counts but without risks life's BORING...

but which ever of them you do listen to..

if you think it throughly through

i know youll make the right choices

and your life wont be as difficult as for most of the ignorant part of this world...

thats the secret to success...lolzz

kiddin actually that is no secret, ever1 is aware of all of this...im just a bored person puttin it up on my blog for people to think and read about it..im just tryin to make ppl think..thats my job

till next time

hi5

enjoy life

RIDHI

28 march 2010

ok...well im a college goin student
and i have boring classes where u have no choice but to NOT listen...
well one such class for me is Material Sciences...its really borin cuz i HATE physics..so i use it for recreation
i had one such lecture yesterday and i actually was so bored dat i wrote this..
p.s. please dont hate me aftre you've read it..lolzzz
hope you enjoy
its called
.
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actually i'd rather you give it a name..hehe dat'll b fun t read..

Sunshine Stars,
Blooming Flowers.
Smothering Flames,
Such a Shame.
How we burn,
If we take a Wrong Turn.
What we need
To plant a seed.
Shining Silver,
Flowing River.
The sea so Blue,
Hard sticky Glue.
A solemn Rose,
What a beautiful Pose.
A sincere Thought,
A memory that we Forgot.
A shivering Hand,
Stuck in Quick Sand.
A poem Without a Cause,
Join your hands in applause..

hehe....
have fun, rock on..
Ridhi..

24th 2010

firstly read the thought of the week...cuz thats for all the ppl out there...

its been a long time since iv written anything

well i have a life outside this network also

its been really busy n all..but yeah today m bored...and (i wont mention the rest)

why is it that masterpieces are always created from a broken heart...or a sad heart??...why is it that people just cant be happy with what they have? why do we always expect so much from the people we love?..or is it just me?..if things dont turn out the way you wanted them to, you could hate yourself for ever having expected anything..its true and i really dont know why people expect anything in the first place anyway...

well i guess maybe because they have given their heart to such an extent that the think dat they do deserve somethin back..but when you dont, does it mean that you stop giving??..could it be that the thought could have just slipped and they didnt known what was to be done ??.. or was it that you r just not important enough...well what i wanna believe n what i believe when im hurt, r and will always b, different..the truth is even the smallest deed is always ALWAYS rewarded..it just may not be then or at that time..it may be later at some point of time when you really need it.. i believe that no1 should be alone..and in the end no matter what happens or doesnt happen with you atleast you can thank god that you are not alone..and you still have people around who support you if not love you the way you love n care about them..atleast they are there..and i believe you should be realy greatful for that..

out of all the people in this world atleast you wernt left all by yourself and he made someone out there for you..

have you ever thought of it in this way that lifes always a bunch or hurdles, experiences, lessons??maybe your so special that god actualy blessed you with special attention??he gave you everythin, but hidden in really tough lessons and choices...cuz he actually believes in you..ever thought of these hurdles??how they might just come handy when you grow up and have to face some really tough situations??..the way when you've faced something already and suddenly that happens again,dont you know exactly how to react in that situation...i guess thats how you should take life cuz, its just too short to fret about small little "stupid" things like this..expectations huh...every1 has them and most of the time the r broken so just grow up and rather become that person who ppl expect stuff from..beome strong n selfless...learn to live, cuz in the end

he believes in you..

and you should believe in yourself, believe in your worth...

believe that in the end all you do is between you and god...

it was never between you and them anyway:)

2005-2006 He Never Knew I loved

//ok again this one is from pretty long back n not even written for me...this one i wrote for my sister about the guy she was crazy about...lolzz...read on..
hope u like it


Sounds alight my lonely mind
As I lay listening to them play..
the one I loved with the one I hate,
Played with pomp and gay.

He didn’t know I loved him,
She knew my love was true,
And so she tried and held him,
All the long night through.

He didn’t know I wanted,
Our friendship to bloom,
And then she came and pricked it,
And burst my dream balloon.

She never was anything,
Not charming or loving,
But when it came to stealing,
She was already seen coming.

I knew not what she got,
By stealing from me my life..
And then the day came,
When she became his wife.

He was all I ever wanted,
The life in me was lost,
My soul now in pieces,
As my love lay between her mast.

And now all I see,
is him in her arms,
But I know that as the time goes by ,
she will loose her charms.

He is now old,
And so as old am I,
But just to tell him that I had loved,
I could never try…

Now in the coffin there he is laid,
His face alight like the moon,
As I know now finally I smile,
That ill be with him when my time comes soon…

//love u sis..
self composed
Ridhi

23 jan 2010 morning

dearest sister,
Hi..
you should know how lucky i feel to have you, you are the reason i feel special.. you r the reason i feel complete..they way you take care of me.. the way you always have time for me, how you help me when im sad, how you tell me on my face when i look bad.. all the moments we've shared...all the stories..all the laughter, the tears..how you were always there to save my back..to laugh at my silly jokes n tell me when m a jerk..how when i was low you were there to lecture me on my wrongs n rights..how you always took my side infront of some1 else even when i was wrong...no matter how much i got scolded back at home..
all the moments we spent together since childhood, we completed each other's sentences..we had fights, had war's but always... we've always held our hearts as one..
you've always known me inside out..same as i have you..
never any secrets no hidden corners..since we were small we could never be broken..we had our own lives but when we were together all we had was each other..it never changed..
no1 else could share this perfect bond that we share..this perfect relationship..
as we grow older..we grow more n more closer..we go to different schools but when we come back all we need is each other..you've been the perfect elder sister iv ever dreamed of..
letting me learn where im supposed to n always tellin me my opitons...lettin me fall if i have to but always being there to pull me up again..tellin me the outcome when i cant decide n believing in me to take the right decision...having that complete trust in me that i can do no wrong...which is what's made me ME today..
we reach our teens and start keeping secrets from our parents but i can always believe that i can tell you anything...anything at all and know that you wont judge me..n will forgive me for my mistakes..i never found a reason to lie to you cuz i know how bad you'd feel n i can never make you feel that way.. you always hear me out...tell me wen im wrong n dont stop me from doing what i like, no matter the consequences..though you already know my decision n you've already made your point clear...
You always have my back when we were to b scolded..always protecting me..my dear sister...i love you for being such a perfect being in my life...
now that im in college n you r so far away..we both have our own lives to live but i know that when any of us need a shoulder...we'll always be there for each other cuz this bond can never break..this bond is made of gold and diamonds.. we'll always be connected in the heart..never apart..
thankyou for being mine..
since the very start of my time
you've helped me live..
i love you
your lil sis..

21 jan 2010

loosing...

ever lost an eraser, a pen, a notebuk, your favourite lipgloss, your private diary, your personal phone, something thats only yours..

all of you must have ..everyone has lost something, misplaced these things..ever thought about how it feels when your favourite thing is LOST.. something that is just not cuming back to you be it anything...the feeling of helplessness..the tension of who has it..a horror..

den i suppose you can guess how much more terrible it is to loose a friend???

and how about when you actually want them to leave for their own good...just so that they can holdup their heads in public..what if ur a disgrace of a friend to them??...what if your just not worth being a friend...what if the friendship you treasure is a real sacrifice on their part..

you try to make it easier for them..by not being what they want you to b...but all your doing is pushin them away..but what if thats the right thing to do...what if thats the thing that was supposed to happen?..

i guess letting go is the only thing worth doin in dis situation...but what if ur selfish enough to not want to do that?..what if you just dont ever want to let dem go...can you actually want dem to suffer so much ?...isnt friendship supposed to b about give n take?...

isnt it about trust?...

wat if u put all your trust in that person that they'll live up to what they say to you..and then just to be able to stand up to that they r a mocking stock for all the world?? can a person be soo deeply hurt that they r not able to defend themselves? not able to find a retort good enough to say back to all the fool's out there who dont understand them...

but then what if all you were doing was a pretense of friendship?? what if you really have no idea about what friendship actually is??what if your the real reason that person is sufferin so much...what if its you cuz of whom they r not able t c ne1 in the eye's!!...

loosin a friend is so hard..

but if the friendship was a pretense then y is it so hard to get over??
but the truth still stands letting a friend go, for the sake of friendship...no matter how much they hate you for it...nomatter how hard it is on you...IS the right thing to do..

DISCLAIMER:TO WHOMSOEVER IT MAY CONCERN...LEAVE ME IN PEACE

19 jan 2010

getting to know oneself
can a person b absolutely self less n ask for no gain?
when u do something do you ask yourself why you r doing it?.is the first thing that comes to your mind the feeling of gaining something or does it stay neutral...everybody absolutely everybody if they ever r seen doin something for some1 else remember there is always a gain involved..be it the most self less thing imaginable..
i wont justify myself.. you can do that well enough...think of the most selfless thing you have ever done..n think about wat was running through your head at those momments...if ur plan was simply and only to help as most of you would say at the momment ...you must av atleast thought this particular thing "someday when i need help that person is sure to b there"...didnt you???
as far as i have seen only animals r capable of such wonderous selfless ness...they r there when u need them ...you can go n sit with them for hours n they will never leave your side..n they never ask for nething on your part..if you pat tem they r happy enough if you dont it doesnt mean that they will run away...these selfless creatures, they dont possess the brain or might of humans.. no dreams no colours...but god sent them to us...to teach us love...such that we never forget how these creatures are to you no matter how u treat them ..if you call them they will always come...do u remember hitting your dog...then do you remember how when u needed him in the dark he was there in a flash...
i know i have it in me to be like this(SOMEDAY)...to give with no gain in mind.. to b true to everyone..to be simple.. to never have a hidden face.. no facade, no show,no expectations...simple shades of grey..but still every1 makes mistakes...every one is selfish..
can we with our complicated multilayered brains ever be like that?...can we ever learn to love n care so selflessly that people just cant help but want us around?..
no matter how beaten u r..always b the shoulder..
no matter how hungry you are ,..always share the last loaf..
no matter if no1 listens to you..always b the ears n heart they want you to b
....if no1 ever understand you...never missunderstand them...
dream about it..cuz thats the last straw to a complete life..the last piece to life's puzzel...
life aint complete untill uv given..."THE FINAL SACRIFICE"..

luv n luck
Ridhi